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Back to running, on my own terms.

After a week’s break, mostly due to heavy mental struggles and almost losing the joy of running, I decided today was not about sticking to the marathon training plan. Instead, I just wanted to run like I used to: a simple 5 km loop through the forest, at a pace that felt good. No pressure, no targets. Just movement.

It was a bit cold, but it felt good. I carried one small water bottle with me. Nothing fancy. Just me and the path.

I started easy, easing into the rhythm. Slowly, the old feeling returned; that relaxed state, the little spark of joy that makes running so special for me. No big achievements, no “data win”, just a genuine smile and a sense of calm.

I keep asking myself if the pressure I had put on training was the reason I mentally shut down earlier. Maybe it was. Today reminded me of something simple: it’s okay to return to the point where running feels safe, fun, and nourishing, and to rebuild from there.

I don’t want to get caught up in comparison; not with others, not with what looks easy from the outside. That’s not my world. I’ve never been interested in winning races or proving myself in competition. My goal is simpler: to give my best, to enjoy the process, and to know that I can do what I set out to do, as well as I can. That’s enough, in running, and in all areas of life.

Today was a good run. Light, calming, and joyful. I hope Wednesday brings the same. I’ll also start adding strength training again, at my pace, in my way. After all, I know my body and hopefully my mental health best.

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